Slight Freak Out

Since it’s back in the forefront of my mind, I’ve been freaking out about Comic Con. More importantly, everything that I have to do at Comic Con.

Honestly, the thought of it is freaking me out. As it gets closer and closer to the main event (at least for me), I can’t help but start thinking about what if I fuck up the first impression. I want to actually meet with some producers and see about pitching a finished product. That’s something where you don’t want to give people bad impressions of your work.

I think that I have a decent story to tell that has sequels. I’m convinced that my dialog is pretty damn smart. So, now I have to convince people I’m a good writer.

This is where I fail. I don’t think I’m the best thing since sliced bread. I’m pretty humble when it comes to talking about myself. I think it’s fair to say that I’ve always had issues viewing myself as being something overly special to the point where I need to brag. It’s just not me. I think everyone is as equally important. While that’s a great ideal to have, it won’t thrill people into reading my writing. That’s the truth of it.

And here’s the biggest hurdle, after Fanime, every night I felt the need to be a hermit. I would keep to myself and not really talk. The reason for this is because I’m fairly introverted. So, while I can be out there and on for the public, after the day is done I just wanna crawl into a personal cave.

I would say that Fanime was a success with me being more out there and ready to network… or rather I think I did. That’s neither here nor there.

The fact is I did it. I came across as more social. So, I can do it. Now I have to do it where it really matters as I will be interacting with a lot of people in the film industry… and comic industry.

So, this is where the fear comes from.

I’m going to try to get past this though. I need to treat this like I did Fanime. Yes, I’m here for business… but I’m going to enjoy it while I’m here too.

And of course, as I’ve said before, I plan on doing write-ups like I did for Fanime. I suspect that this might be about 2 weeks of stuff. That’s not entirely surprising since it’s a larger convention.

Why am I writing this? Well, I’m using this to vent my fears. There’s nothing wrong with admitting fears and flaws.

At least I’m going into this with a positive attitude. Even if I don’t manage to start hammering out a screenwriting deal, it will increase exposure. That’s the best that I can hope for… and possibly meet the creator of Akira…