Where is My Motivation?

My brain’s kinda been all over the place recently. I’ve found it a bit hard to focus on one topic and to just keep writing about it.

So, maybe that’s what I need to write about, my inability to focus and write about one topic. Or rather, the motivation to focus and write.

I’m never sure what my motivation to write is. There’s something in my head that begs and pleads for me to write out the stories that I create in my head, even if it’s a short snippet. Some days that voice is louder than others.

Recently it’s been a roller coaster. Some days I know exactly what I want to write, and others… not so much. It’s an in consistency that does tend to get on my nerves.

So, I’m trying to find new ways to motivate my writing. I have a screenplay that I’ve been working on for about 6 months. Granted, I can turn out scripts faster than that (I miss the days where I would feel the need to write for 12 hours straight). For some reason, life seems to be making a bit tougher to have those days.

Perhaps that’s it. Life is making it difficult for me to sit down and do what I really want to do. I want to write. Unfortunately, life can’t exactly take a backseat.

So, now I need to find a new motivation. I try to avoid quotas because I’ll play the game of I wrote 10 pages yesterday, so I don’t have to write today. It’s a divisive thing that I do, and I know that. So, I’m trying to figure out something better than a set quota. After all, there are plenty of ways to wiggle out of a quota.

Maybe I just need to give myself those 12 hour days of writing. It is something that I both miss and enjoy. I’m, not sure how my scripts fair when I do something like that… but it might just be worth a try.

Who knows, it might just be what the doctor ordered to get me focused on my writing again.