A Moment in Life

I’m gonna be a bit more candid and personal today. Things have been a bit hectic as of late. I’m trying to roll with it, but it’s a lot of stuff that I feel the need to process out.

Life continues to truck along. That’s way it goes.

But then there are things that make you want to put everything on pause. I think I might be at that point now.

My grandmother was diagnosed with terminal cancer about this time last year. While I was never really close to her, it still is losing a part of your childhood. Both of my grandparents were always there. It was inevitable that they weren’t going to be there. A year later (give or take), my dad was diagnosed with cancer. It’s not terminal, but it makes me feel uneasy.

Thankfully, they found it early. So, that means treatment can happen and should be successful.

But it’s my father.

It’s a lot to take in. I don’t expect my parents to be there forever. That’s the way life is. We’re born then at some point later, we die. It’s expected that one’s going to need to handle the death of one or both parents.

I also have experience with people dying of cancer. It’s not something that’s easy to deal with. It’s something you need to deal with though.

Personally, I’m not sure how I feel right now. I have so many things going on right now that it’s hard to just think on any one thing. As much as I would love to be able to process one thing at a time. Life doesn’t work that way… or rather my life doesn’t work that way. So, I need to process many things at a time… and frankly, I can’t.

So, I’m hoping that this will help me start processing how I feel about this. This will be the pause that will help me start going through what I need to. Who knows, we’ll see how this all pans out.