It’s the Most Miserable Time of the Year: Why I Loathe Xmas
So many reasons why to fucking hate this time of year…
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Ghosts of Abuse
C/W, T/W: Talking about physical abuse of a child, beatings The thing about child abuse is that you never really escape the ghost of abuse. Some days, it’s easy to ignore the minor triggers. It gets easier to walk away from some of them. Then there are things that bring …
Pain and Psychology
The human body can be strange. It’s put together in an interesting way, that, in many ways, seem a bit bizarre… like how one side of your brain actually controls the opposite side of the body, or how nerves in your back can cause completely disparate parts of the body …
Demon Exoricising, and Other Crappy Things
Life… Life is a funny thing. Sometimes it can be great, filled with wonderful highs. Sometimes it’s filled with tragedy. I’ve seen quite a few tragedies in my time, perhaps too many. I can’t make that judgment all myself, as I have no real outside way to know. These tragedies …
Yeah, Me Too
To put a little context to my “me too” comment. TW/CW: all kinds of abuse, harassment, and molestation. I won’t pull any punches, this is not going to be graphic, but I am talking frankly about what happened to me. More importantly, by actually talking about this I’m working on …
Back with Some Deep Thoughts
Like many who legitimately have PTSD (and unlike those who like to make light of how serious a mental health condition it really is, but that’s a rant for another day), there are things that’s people can talk about that will elicit a specific emotional reaction. Unfortunately, there is little …
Flashbacks and Faulty Pasts
There are things that happen in life that can be… overwhelming. There are some things that feel like a steamroller has run over me, taking it all out of me. My life feels like it’s stuck in two worlds… which is interesting. While I consciously know that I’m in a …
Little Girl Lost
There are things that are hard for me to describe, even as a decently educated writer. The hardest is to explain what being triggered is like. It’s not just discomfort or being upset. I wish it were simple. Then again, of PTSD were easy to understand, then there wouldn’t be as …
Gonna Dump My Brain All Over Here
It’s been a while since I’ve done a lot of writing. Emotionally, it’s been difficult to motivate myself to do much more than want to hide under blankets and ignore the world. I’m now working on trying to do more. I’ve kind of gotten to the point where you wind …
Thanks for the Kick in the Ass
For the past couple of weeks, I’ve been having quite the hard time of things. This isn’t surprising since this is the time of the quarter that I hate so much. That’s right it’s PMS and on into that horrible female affliction known as a period. I’ve never really enjoyed it… …