These are issues that I still struggle with, to this day to one degree or another. I do have a better sense of self-worth, but I still think that if something bad happens… that I did something wrong for it to happen to me. The degree to which this instilled …
Since I’m enjoying feeling less encumbered from having done a lot of work on dealing with my rape, I figured maybe I should tackle the bigger and scarier monster in my closet. This is one that I wish that I didn’t have, let alone have the need to kill it …
Sometimes it’s weird how these chains of thought develop even when one processes through all their personal stuff. I didn’t think I was going to find this whole new random thread among the clutter of others. But as I was writing about my rape again (because each time I find …
I don’t often cite Family Guy as a source for deeper thought. I mean, come on, it’s not exactly a bastion of good lessons or real thought. It’s mostly base and crass humor. Occasionally they have some great episodes, or parts that are poignant… sometimes they hit close to home. …
I’m feeling on edge right now. I feel as though I’m back in a spot that I took myself out of many years ago. I don’t think I’m a victim, but I also still feel incredibly thin-skinned. There are certain names that when I see them I find myself dealing …
It’s a sad state of affairs when certain things that you get used to. Things that shouldn’t be OK. Things that one shouldn’t hear . One of the things that I’ve grown accustom to hearing is that I’m never good enough. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve been …
~Note: There will be emotional abuse discussed with in. Don’t read if you’re afraid you’ll be triggered.~ There are times where sleeping is hardest for me. It’s a problem that I have deal with largely since I was 13… at least that’s as far as I can remember. I might …
… Or I’ll stab you with a Q-Tip. We all get moments where we feel like that. We all have insecurities. They all are about how we somehow fail as a person. They’re about appearance, weight or some perceived social flaw. Some of us give into them easier than others. …
I hate this… I hate feeling like this. I wish I didn’t have to deal with trigger effects. I know, it’s not exactly something that can be controlled. It’s not like it’s something that I asked for or sought out. If I did, it wouldn’t affect me to this day. …
It’s been no secret that I’ve been working on trying to reduce my anger that lingers from abuse. It’s something that I constantly struggle with. It’s something that I’ve tried to handle for some time. Most days I can do it. Recently I’ve been feeling triggered more. I feel more …
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